I can't sleep

So here I am again...

I put on my fairy wings this afternoon and waved the blackbird wand, but nothing happened and I had to get down to cleaning the studio myself :( No sooner than I got it in to a reasonable state to work in, a squatter moved in...


Where was I supposed to sit and read now? I decided I wouldn't bother and found something more interesting and satisfying to do instead - and I've only just finished. I've been making more art work...because of course I've got loads more storage space to fill!!!!! I'm feeling really creative at the moment, but have this beastly anxiety that it will all dissipate (or more likely disappear in a flash) and then I won't have anything for months, maybe years, or decades. The worry keeps me awake at night. When you're not making anything, do you call it a 'research period' to make yourself feel better? I'm living in fear of my next research period; I hope and trust something will come out of my last piece of work, but what if it doesn't? I have this one thing I'm concentrating on and nothing else. It's scary. And late. Maybe I should stop inflicting my anxieties on you and try and get some sleep! Night, night!